im so upset/mad/confused/everything right now.
i was fine until i saw a picture of my ex with his g/f, even it being the tiniest thumbnail ever on fb chat, it still made my heart sink into my stomach. it literally makes me sick to think about them being together. ive been surprisingly more ok with the fact that he left again the only thing that gets me is i have no idea why he told me everything he did before. any other time he made it to be strictly friends but this time it was more. FOR WHAT?! why tell me that and make things happen if your plan the whole time was to leave when the bitch wanted you back?! why why whyyy is all i can say. i have soo many questions why and none of them are answered and THAT is what bothers me about you leaving, because it doesnt make sense. and im so infuriated with that every day but it only gets to me sometimes.
it honestly just makes me want to run to my other ex just so he can hold me and comfort me. idec about hooking up or dating him, i just want to hold him and have the same in return. and this time its even more crazy wantin to be with him cuz i really thought i was over the feelings of wanting to date him and such but now i really dont know i think id be ok with that maybe. but i think this time i feel like that because we both need comfort, both of exs fucked us over BAD. i just want to be there for him regardless of how much shit i talked to him and how much we’ve gone through because of our exs. i just wish we could talk to each other about it, but i seriously dont think i could hear about how much he cared about her blah blah but idk if he could say the same for me, ya know? im so confused with everything between us now and i have no one to tell it to because really he’s the one i need to talk with.
this fucking sucks. i hate this. i hate her. i wish all fucked up slutty ass bitches would die, LEGIT.